I'm thinking so many things right now. As each days passes by, so do the experiences I'm having in my life. I know that reading my journals is sometimes like a roller coaster ride.....one day I'm up and the next day I'm down. But that just seems to go with the territory with me for so many different reasons like the ones I've already shared with you in earlier journals.
I wanted to write to you this morning to share my contentment this morning. One of my close friends came to visit me last evening. It was the most magical evening . He is such a loving soul. His touch is so gentle. His warmth fills me.
My mind drifts off to far off places with him.............perhaps in another lifetime together. He feels so natural to be with, kinda like we are made of the same substance. I completely melt into him. Even trying to write down my feelings here is difficult because I feel that sometimes there are no words to match my feelings and emotions. No words would be able to express the bliss I feel. Even when we just hold each other, he says so many things to me without saying a word...
I am truely blessed to have so much love in my life. If I was to die today, I could not complain. I've had more love in my 40 years than some people have in a lifetime. For me, nothing equals the feeling of being loved, and being able to connect with someone in that special 'place'. Making love for me is the most spiritual thing in the world. I feel that I am so close to the source of 'all'. I've been blessed to have found loves in my life that can share that experience with me. I believe that you must truly be with one of your soulmates to experience the kind of sensuality I have been able to have. I'm so thankful...............
In saying all this today, I hope that when my friend reads my journal, he realizes how special he is to me in so many ways. I truely think he is a wonderful person and I thank the heavens above to sending him into my life. He fills my heart with love and light.
All I ever need to do to be with him is to close my eyes and listen to one of my favorite songs that I dedicate to him...............Sailing (by Christopher Cross). And we sail away to never never land together in a dream......
It's not far down to paradise
At least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find tranquility
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Believe me
It's not far to never never land
No reason to pretend
And if the wind is right you can find the joy
Of innocence again
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Believe me
SailingTakes me away
To where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and the wind to carry me
And soon I will be free
FantasyIt gets the best of me
When I'm sailing
All caught up in the reverie
Every word is a symphony
Won't you believe me
It's not far back to sanity
At least it's not for me
And when the wind is right you can sail away
And find serenity
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and seeBelieve me......
